Hi, I have a homosexual inclination towards men. Over the past 9 years I have been thinking about it and arrived at the conclusion that there is no way I can get rid of it. I talked to some of the most well known Islamic scholars and all they said was already known to me: it's against nature,against Allah's will.They gave me the example of the people of Loot, which I had been aware of.The treatment we receive from Islam seems utterly unfair.But the truth is, I believe in Allah, therefore I have to pay for my belief.I have decided to live my life alone,since I can't pretend my whole life fulfilling the role of a heterosexual couple. Sometimes homoerotic thoughts comes to my mind, and as I know it is sinful,I am thinking to give Kaffara for it. Is there any?

All praise be to Allah, and may His blessings and peace be upon His messenger,

Islam doesn’t hold you accountable for your involuntary feelings, but it categorically forbids homosexuality, when it means having any form of sexual relationship with a member of the same sex.

Muslim reported from Abi Sa’eed that the Messenger of Allah (blessings and peace be upon him) said,

"لَا يَنْظُرُ الرَّجُلُ إِلَى عَوْرَةِ الرَّجُلِ وَلَا تَنْظُرُ الْمَرْأَةُ إِلَى عَوْرَةِ الْمَرْأَةِ وَلَا يُفْضِي الرَّجُلُ إِلَى الرَّجُلِ فِي الثَّوْبِ الْوَاحِدِ وَلَا تُفْضِي الْمَرْأَةُ إِلَى الْمَرْأَةِ فِي الثَّوْبِ الْوَاحِدِ."

“No man should look at the ‘awrah (nakedness) of another man, and no woman should look at the ‘awrah (nakedness) of another woman. No man should be next to another man under one cover and no woman should be next to another woman under one cover.”

There is a unanimous agreement of the scholars on the prohibition of lesbianism.

As for the feelings, you are not held accountable for them, since they are involuntary. However, I invite you to look at the case of a man falling in love with a married woman, should he restrain his feelings, or even move away to avoid the temptation, or should he act upon those feelings? The answer is obvious to any Muslim. There is also the individual who has a compulsive habit of stealing. Should he, if at all possible, resist that urge? There is now a good amount of research that criminality, including murder, is in fact chemically predisposed. Do you think any society would pardon its criminals because of that? All the above simply means that someone got a harder test in one area than others. Tests vary, and some people are tested with extreme hardship, loss of senses, loved ones, etc, while others may be tested by some of those inclinations.

There is no sin incurred and no kaffarah warranted for having involuntary inner thoughts about this or anything else.

Believing in Allah and thinking that Islam treats you unfairly are contradictory feelings that are mutually exclusive. Please be careful about your beliefs for your own spiritual safety and salvation. Human beings may vary amongst themselves in understanding and what is considered wise by some is not to others. How then would man allow himself to judge the wisdom of the creator. 

I ask Allah to help you on your test, and guide you to that which is best.